Uneasy at Church?

puzzling... 
sometimes we get a lot out of church. other times we dont.
Usually for me it goes from either feeling super uplifted and filled and excited! to being bored (but thats my fault)

Today I went to church, but as I sat through the first of three meetings, I noticed I wasnt exactly focused. (It can be easy to get distracted after a long week and things on your mind. Or even just getting a poor nights sleep..)

By the end of the first meeting I felt uneasy.. like almost anxious. I was trying to figure out, is this me? or is this God?

I left the main Sunday school and tried a smaller Sunday school class. Sat down, made friendly conversation. Still felt uneasy. I excused myself before the meeting began and sat in the hallway. At this point I felt frustrated.


 I came to church to feel peace, or at least not this. 
I was praying to know what to do. Is there something I need to change or do? Am I not in the right place right now? The thought came to me (as it had a few times in the past few weeks) should I go to the Singles ward?? (A congregation just for the young single adults in the church to go to)

So, I walked out to the car and drove over to the other building. I sat in the hallway for 10 minutes just listening to the speakers of their first meeting. One started his talk, and I started to feel the spirit, I started to feel at peace. It didnt last long, but it was a little reassuring. I walked in for the last 15 minutes and didnt know exactly how I felt..

I saw a friend I knew on the stand who spoke before I got there, and I went straight up to her when the meeting was over and asked for a hug. It was just what I needed.

We went to Sunday School together, but I didnt know how long I would stay if the same feelings came back.  Partway through someone asked a question, one that I had received a specific answer for in the past that really made a difference for me. I felt the spirit burning in me, and shared my thoughts. Finally, PEACE. I felt so good...

 

 
Sometimes God pushes us in a way or a direction we dont understand. Sometimes we have to do the best we can and trust He will eventually get us where we need to be. Sometimes God puts us in specific places, but as I learned today in church: Everything God does for us is to ultimately make us Happy. I still dont know why I was led there, but I trust that God has a reason.

and I believe that to be true...